From Sleeper To Awaken
I was on top to my game, running my own successful business – 3 offices in two european countries – holidays in tropical places, a beautiful girlfriend, a house, the car an Alfa Romeu, appearances on TV and Magazines, recognition, and all the perks that come with it.
Suddenly, from nowhere, everything began to make no sense. My drive, motivation and ambition for material goods was gone. I didn’t understand what was “wrong” with me. As time went by, it became harder and harder for me to maintain small talk and superfluous relationships.
One of the most unsettling symptoms was the sensation of deep emptiness on my chest, a painful hole of nothingness. I felt like an empty shell painful going through the motions.
The five years spent studying Psychology at University didn’t prepare for what life was throwing at me. As a psychologist I was reluctant to go into therapy (I know best, personal pride… you know the story) but it was precisely this journey that opened the door to a mysterious and unknown world: the world of Spiritual Awakening.
The Bottom Of The Pit
Make no mistake, this was a long journey, it took me several years, into dark pits of despair and loneliness, where my previous me was being disassembled piece by piece, the business was gone, the girlfriend was gone, the house, the car, the friends and all the rest, gone. Inside of me a similar process was taking place, life was dissembling me. I could no longer answer with certainty the question of who I was. I had no clue.
To awaken to the truth that you seek, you must tear down the lies.
All my previous masks fell and all the personal reference points went. The ground of existence was being pulled way from my feet. No more secure ground to lay new foundations. I was drifting in life, on a boat with no sails, with a broken compass and no shore in sight. I was a castaway on life’s ocean.
Awakening To A New Light
Slowly, from the ruins of what I thought I was, a new man began to emerge. As all layers, masks and beliefs were gone, it was now possible to connect to the Core of who I am. For me the Core is beyond external references: society, culture, politics and religion. I felt a new clarity of mind and thought that pierced through lies and deceit, a sense of wonder about life, an acceptance of myself and others, amazing synchronicities that came with it and a deep unity to all that exists.
Grace is within you. Grace is your Self. Grace is not something to be acquired from others. If it is external, it is useless. All that is necessary is to know its existence is in you. You are never out of its operation.
– Ramana Maharshi
The storms of the journey being to ease but a fundamental question remain without an answer – What next? What will I do with what I experienced and learned on this journey? What would give me meaning and purpose to use the time I have left?
A Question Of Meaning
For sometime I couldn’t answer the question – What will I do now? – and even when I found the answer I was reluctant to step into action. I was resisting to step into my new role. Uncertainty and a certain dose of fear were testing me – Am I up to the task? The answer was for me to step forward and start helping others to Journey through Spiritual Awakening and dedicate myself exclusively to this.
Mission And Purpose
I began to feel that the idea of helping others going through the journey was energizing me and motivating me. Couldn’t avoid it any longer, and I decide YES.
Now, I assume wholeheartedly that this is my mission and the purpose of the Awake Development website: to help others Journeying through Spiritual Awakening and arrive safely at the other shore, the Awaken shore.
Do you feel connected to this? Be part of the global Awakening that is taking place on Planet Earth right now. Be part of this great ocean of change. Together with can help create a better World. Be part of the Awake Community.
Jaime Grace is a spiritual and social change-agent, dedicated to a freer global consciousness, and spreading of awakening ideas on both individual and societal levels.
He is a sought after teacher, mentor and coach, known for his work as a psychotherapist and shamanic healer.
His studies in psychology, art therapy and shamanism have taken him around the world and back, and have largely shaped his outlook on life through the immersion in different social and cultural dimensions.
He leads workshops, retreats and programs worldwide to help individuals to flow with the changes of spiritual awakening, creating a freer, awaken and heart centered, life.